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femmejosephine) wrote2016-02-02 08:13 pm
femmejosephine) wrote2016-02-02 08:13 pm
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A few revelations
It was a risk to go to the gun range. She knew it. One of these days someone was going to recognize her and ask interesting questions about why the restaurant owner was extremely proficient with firearms. On the other hand, not keeping up her skills was stupid, especially considering she was armed nearly every minute of every day. She didn't carry at the gym, obviously, and if she was working the floor at the restaurant she tended not to, but other than that, always.
She tried to reduce the risk at the gun range by always going at different days and times so no pattern could be established, by using different routes to get there, and of course by always renting a gun and choosing different lanes. Not the same gun, either. Just some gun, whatever her eye landed on first. Her shooting glasses were slightly darker than normal, too, although they didn't impede her vision.
She'd done all that today too, and now she was getting ready to leave. She'd had a good day - her targets had been well-clustered, and because the range had been almost empty, she'd let herself be a little better than usual. Normally she didn't work to her full capacity because that would raise questions too, but sometimes it was satisfying to cluster the shots so tightly. She was sure that said something about her psychology since she'd given up that life and yet maintained her skills, but Madeline wasn't here to ask her about it.
She tried to reduce the risk at the gun range by always going at different days and times so no pattern could be established, by using different routes to get there, and of course by always renting a gun and choosing different lanes. Not the same gun, either. Just some gun, whatever her eye landed on first. Her shooting glasses were slightly darker than normal, too, although they didn't impede her vision.
She'd done all that today too, and now she was getting ready to leave. She'd had a good day - her targets had been well-clustered, and because the range had been almost empty, she'd let herself be a little better than usual. Normally she didn't work to her full capacity because that would raise questions too, but sometimes it was satisfying to cluster the shots so tightly. She was sure that said something about her psychology since she'd given up that life and yet maintained her skills, but Madeline wasn't here to ask her about it.
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She took a deep breath and reminded herself that if it went badly, if he turned out to want to use something against her, she was still armed twice over and even without it, she practically was a weapon.
"I'm going to be very bad at this," she warned him. "It's been conditioned into me - painfully, and I mean that literally - that I should not talk about any of this."
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Phil found himself frowning a bit. It didn't exactly bode well that she'd been conditioned. But then, so had Romanov and he trusted her implicitly. Perhaps Nikita was the same. "Just start talking. The rest will work itself out."
He leaned back, casually, and waited. While he wanted to know and he had more or less forced the situation, he wasn't going to hover. Now that he had her talking, he was happy to let her do it at her own speed. He wasn't going to judge, not until he had the facts as she saw them.
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Every aspect of his body language said interested but patient and she almost smiled at how carefully he was presenting himself. She could recognize it for what it was and still appreciate that he was doing it.
"As far as you're aware, are there any organizations in your world known as Sections?"
That was probably the first question to ask. If he was from a world that had Sections and he was aware of them, she could identify her Section and that might tell him everything he needed to know. If not, she'd start at a different point. It was a risk to mention Section's name, but she could avoid noting the number of Sections, and she wasn't going to mention Center or Oversight unless she had to.
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"No." But then he wouldn't necessarily. If there was one thing that Hydra had taught him it was how incomplete their knowledge was back home. Almost terrifyingly incomplete. Knowledge had come too little, too late and a lot of good SHIELD agents had paid the price. It wasn't a mistake he was going to make again. Assume nothing. Anticipate everything. So while he had never heard of anything called Section, he didn't rule it out.
The fact that it was called Section was telling enough. It implied it was part of a greater whole, possibly semi-autonomous in nature. She said it in the plural so there are likely multiple cells over the world. Something like that would have some kind of organizational leadership somewhere. "Is that what you're a part of, then? Or is that who you operate against?"
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They both probably knew that it was possible that he wouldn't know about Section even if it was present. One thing she'd learned since becoming a part of that particular shadow world was that there were always more layers and more loyalties. Even if it seemed like everything was clear, it probably wasn't. Especially if it seemed like everything was clear.
She tried to think of how Michael had explained Section to her, that first awful day. Of course, she wouldn't be providing details like Michael had, but what had he said? There was a phrase.
"In my world, and maybe in yours, Section is 'the most covert anti-terrorism organization on the planet'," she recited, then smirked, because she didn't quite believe the hype even after being part of it. "Or at least that's their press. They do things that the CIA, FSB, Mossad, and MI-6 can't or won't do."
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To Phil's ears, it sounded a bit like SHIELD. Or, Hydra, depending on the head in place. "I'm familiar with the concept. You don't seem to have bought in, though. Is there a reason for that?" Off-hand he could think of several. But again, he wasn't going to make any assumptions here. Aside from the fact that the source and nature of her skill set was coming into crystal focus. As well as the reason behind her cagey and coy behavior. He'd been right on that regard at least.
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"Other than the fact that I have a bad attitude and issues with authority in general?" she asked wryly as she sipped her drink. Actually sipped it, too, instead of just seeming to sip it. She was pausing a lot in this conversation, but it was necessary to decide what she was going to say and how she was going to say it. Phil was probably doing a fair bit of reading into what she wasn't saying, too.
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"If there is something else. One of my newest agents could be described in similar terms, but it doesn't mean she doesn't believe in what we do. Most of the time. She's come a long way, actually." He was as proud of Skye as he was of any of the trainees that have served under him over the years, but she had been a handful. She was, however, assuming she was still alive (and he always assumed that until proven otherwise), one of the best agents he'd worked with. He read a bit of that in Nikita and he hoped it wasn't an accident.
"But I think your situation might be a bit more complicated or you'd be more up-front in discussing it."
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Did she believe in what Section did? Sometimes. She'd seen what some of their "enemies" had been planning and she'd agree that making passenger jets collide or releasing nerve gas into a building's air system was bad. If Section was the only way to stop them, then maybe it had to exist. She just couldn't agree with their methods, as good at them as she'd turned out to be.
"Section's ends might be just," and there was a pretty big might in there, as far as she was concerned, "but their means are ruthless. I'm not a fan of treating people like they're disposable."
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"I think that's a good policy to have. It's certainly how I try to do my work." Although even he wouldn't claim that he'd always been successful. But Phil tried. In the end, keeping his people safe in the situations he sent them into, making sure they came home and that innocents didn't get stuck in the cross-fire, that was the best he could do.
"When you say ruthless...?"
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"Try not to work for Section, then. You won't fit in," she advised him dryly. Phil would be a huge acquisition for Section given his skillset. They'd love him. He'd hate it.
The list of ways Section was ruthless was long and painful, and she didn't really want to provide examples unless she had to.
"I mean they are utterly willing to sacrifice anyone and anything at any time. If I didn't do what I was supposed to or I failed at something particularly spectacularly, I knew they'd kill me. Which I don't actually think is the best motivational tool, really."
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"Ah. That kind of ruthless." Sounded like Hydra. Lovely, although Nikita clearly didn't approve. Which made him wonder, "What did they have on you? It's pretty clear from what you say, you didn't want to be there."
It wasn't beyond Hydra to blackmail or threaten compliance.
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His question was valid and understandable given her clear dislike of what she'd been doing. She supposed she could have attempted to play happy little operative, but it wouldn't have worked, and she'd gone into this conversation trying to be truthful. But they were getting into things she didn't really want to discuss now. As much as she didn't like discussing Section (although she had avoided any specific details about it), she really didn't like discussing why she was there in the first place. She knew how it sounded to protest her innocence. Everyone did. No one in a prison was guilty. She was used to no one ever believing her. Section hadn't. Her lawyer hadn't. The judge certainly hadn't. And on top of that was the knowledge that even if she hadn't committed the crime she'd gone to prison for, she'd committed enough for Section that it might not really matter.
"Remember that photo I got?"
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"I do." It was her story and he was satisfied to let her to tell it however she wanted, especially since he could tell they were heading into territory she was extremely uncomfortable with. He was getting enough for the answers he wanted to let a few more things slide. Especially considering he was moving towards the conclusion that she was more a person he could genuinely trust and not just have a casual friendship with. In a place like this, that difference was crucial.
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"Everyone in Section is officially dead."
It was a short answer and it wouldn't tell him everything he wanted to know, but it was probably enough to explain why she'd stayed with Section. She would elaborate if needed, but she'd rather not. Her answer avoided what exactly they "had" on her, too, which he would almost certainly question either now or at some point in the future. She'd handle it as it came.
Sometimes, in her more contemplative moments, she considered how little she trusted anyone to believe her or stand up for her or back her up. Her life had given her no reason to trust anyone else, though, from childhood on, and that didn't change quickly.
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"That would explain the grave." Although it didn't quite explain the story behind it. The reason, at least on the front, made sense. After all, Fury and Hill had gone to lengths to hide his own resurrection although he had a sense hers was less alien and more conspiracy.
There was, however, one thing that concerned him, "Was it your choice?" Something about her hesitation spoke more to anger and resignation than dedication and duty.
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She'd built it as a child, honed it as a teen, and Section had been no different. She wanted to live, so she'd worked for them. It wasn't until later she realized it was no life at all, to not actually exist and to have to do things she would never have chosen to do. Especially since she'd gotten there through literally no fault of her own.
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"I'm sorry to hear that. It's bad form to force people to work for you under threat. They tend to resent that." He knew that sometimes the enemy of an enemy was a friend, but that was a bit extreme. And he could see a woman like Nikita chafing, perhaps outright rebelling, threat of death or no. The fact that he was sitting her talking to her and she was telling him this, albeit obliquely, said a lot.
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"I refused to kill one too many people who didn't deserve to die and they scheduled me to be cancelled. Didn't matter that they'd invested three years and I don't even know how much money in me. I had a bad attitude, so off I had to go."
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"And running a cafe. Must be a nice change of pace. Unless you're bored?"
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"Not usually. I did turn out to be damn good at what they needed me to do, but I don't miss doing it. I'm feeding people - getting them one of the basics of life. It's pretty satisfying most of the time. And if I need a bit of an adrenaline rush, I go to the gym. Or the range."
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"Sounds like you've made a good life. You don't miss the old at all?" He wouldn't pull her away from a good place. Not if she didn't want it, even if he though she'd be useful for what he suspected was coming. He didn't have the full picture yet, but what little he knew he didn't like. Sooner or later, he'd need to act and having someone with Nikita's skills would be useful, but not necessary.
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He was probing for something, although he was doing it very nicely. He'd hit the right note for practically this whole conversation, and she wasn't quite sure whether it was because he was just that good at this or because he was being sincere. It might actually be both.
"If you're asking whether I'm permanently in retirement, no. A friend here has asked for my help a few times and I've given it."
Porthos' work was his own business, so that was all the detail she'd be providing.
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"Would you be interested in doing it again if the situation arises?" It would be something to keep in his back pocket. He had other people he could call, but more would always be better. Time would tell, but even if his current suspicions didn't pan out, sooner or later, there was always need for a gun arm or some spycraft. And he needed people he could trust. Regardless of her past, or where she came from, he trusted her and that was a short list to be on.
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"It would depend," she finally said. "My personal code of ethics doesn't always line up with the world's laws, but if it didn't go against it, I'd be willing to discuss it."
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